(V)oonlit Cradle

Honey, I'm home! =]

2005-01-15T22:53:00.000-08:00

Guess who's back?
(Back, Back..)
Back again?

Watsap Coconat?! Wahehe! Anyway! What has been happening in this God-forsaken life of mine? ahaha!
Boracay= yap! nagboracay kami nung xmas break! weeeeeeeee! it was loads of fun! we went jet-skiing, banana boat riding, snorkling, at shopping! hahah! grabe! 3 days puro seafoods ang kinain! hahahah! sarap naman... more blue marlin please! yap! my relatives were there too.. sina matmat, michelle, tito nito and tita may!
January 1, 2005= HAPPY NEW YEAR! ahahaha! anyway! at last we set off some fireworks in the roof deck! too bad some wree duds.. ahaha! [tito nito: hey! i want my money back!] hahahah! we drank champaigne.. medya noche.. sawap! fooooooooooood! poor hershey! my cute widdle dobuwman hid under the sink the whole time!
anyway, later on that day, the Maddatu family went back to New Jersey.. crap. umiyak ako? ahahah! I knew I was going to miss them.. especially Mat Mat! It's like this.. I connected more to him than Michelle,actually. [She's still a brat and keeps on getting my cellphones to read my messages! brrrrrrrr.. gigil!!] Anyway.. Mat Mat.. astig cya! We just talked and talked a lot. Especially up in the attic [where we slept]. On the day before New Year, we were up until.. 5am? Just talking.. playing cards.. bleh.. sharing sharing.. wala lang! masaya lang ako. They don't have any Ate in New Jersey.. the oldest of their cousins was just a few years older than Mat Mat.. and I just wanted to be their Ate. Hahaha.. I wanted them to feel that I'd be there for them, and I'd help them out just like what an Ate does =]
Anyway! Umiyak ako kasi mamimiss ko si Mat Mat.. and yeah, si Michelle din [reluctant. jowk!]

Hmmm.. ano pa ba? New Year's resolutions.. bleargh. Same as always: change my bad habits. Study. hahahah.. I passed Ateneo de Manila nga pala! BS Psycho! wooooooot!

And then there was Aisne Bucsit's debut party! wow! ABS-CBN compound! ang saya saya talaga nun! sawap ng food! astig ng program! waaaaaaa! it soooo rocked! =]

Then there was the college talk.. ahahhah! I really have to shape up! I don't think I'll survive college if I continue to slack around...

And another wak up call: nagalit na si Andi sa akin. Andi's one of my friends na sobrang mahal ko! She's like my mommy in class! She looks after me..and my poor study habits! wakokoko! lagi akong pinapagalitan.. eh, nagsnap earlier this week. di ako pinapansin.. huhuhu! di ko makayanan sobra!!!! T_T anyway.. iniyakan ko cya. babaw ng luha ko noh? but i know i deserved the treatment.. pati si domn, my beloved cousin, nadamay ko. she's a friend of andi's too.. and ayun. she didn't want to take sides... but anyway! ayun. I talked to Andi.. umiyak pa ako. Then she hugged me =] wala lang.. it was a wake up call. I promised her that I'd change.. and I plan to uphold that. bleh.

Namamasko Po!

2004-12-24T00:43:00.000-08:00

Ang pasko ay sumapit
Tayo ay managsi-awit..

My relatives from New Jersey - the Maddatu family - came home for Christmas. Tita May is my mum's sister. It was quite a shock to see my cousins, Matthew and Michelle, all grown up! As in, "Wow!!" Matt's a teenager now.. he's so different from the kid I used to know! He's a LOT taller, and voice a LOT deeper >.o Michelle is so pretty now! I can see she's matured from the little spoiled brat I used to know! Ahaha! I remember we dubbed her as "Nastina"! Ah basta! Nakakagulat silang makita muli!
And woah.. lotsa baggages! >.o hahahah! Panay tsokolate nanaman,aba! Christmas.. a time of joy, a time of chocolates..

and also a time of giving.

After eating in Bulawan, the so called "Floating Restaurant" when it really should be called The Restaurant on Stilts, we went CaRoLiNg!!! Yap! The tradition of singing door to door and hoping that the people within will give us something in return..

but this caroling was different!

The Rotary Club of Lakeshore Rizal cooked up this nice Christmas activity! Yeah, we sang.. caroling... but instead of receiving, we gave! We had pails of Xmas goodies.. and we visited Lagundi, a mostly- impoverished barrio here in Morong, and sang to selected houses. The reactions of the people we visited were priceless.. each, touching my heart and definitely leaving a mark. Each family had its own history - suffering and pain - and in this Yuletide season, we wanted them to experience the Spirit of Christmas. Happiness, for a change..
Some were grinning to the ears. Some cried for joy.

Poignant.

Of course, the people I sang with were jOLogS! Ahaha! Funny, funny, funny =] No sarcasm applied here! I played the guitar, while dad played a portable keyboard! Haha! Jamming! It was fun.. tiring, but fun! Tito Neato, Tita May, Matt, Michelle, Kuya and Mum were with us.. but later on, they went home. We started caroling at 8:30pm, and dad and I went home at about 12:30am.

Sure, my feet hurt. I stepped on God-knows-what-and-I-don't-even-want-to-know-it things... My hand hurt. My arm hurt. I'm sleepy right now. I'm locked out of my room [Tito Neato and Tita May are occupying it] But I'm happy. This is one experience.. I'm sure I'll never forget.

RAGE

2004-12-19T19:56:00.000-08:00

By far.. I am having the worst day of my life.

Nanakawan.
Tinalikuran.
Niloko.
Kinalimutan.
Inasar.
Nasiraan.

Oh,God. Tama na!!!

Welcome to my life?

2004-12-15T01:18:00.000-08:00

There's a fruitcake for everybody
There's a fruitcake for everyone..
There are B-sides to every story
So come on in and have some fun..

-Eraserheads, Fruitcake

I'm not having a good day.
First, trouble at school.. now trouble at home!
School= grrrrr! arghhh! [punch! punch!] waaaarghh! annoyance! [spinning-bird kick!] nyarrrrr! [scratches air] high-blood! shivalashivalavu!! &$^$Y$^%$!!! [eye twitches!eye twitches horribly!] *mentions name* aaaargggghhh! [crushes imaginary box into a ball]

hay.. that felt good.. then when I got home...
Home= [turns on pc] O____O [blink blink]
waaaaaaaaa!! tangina! tangina! shivalashu! &*%*&$*&!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhh!! [panic] why me?! why me?!!!!!! asdfasdfsertaweansd!!!!!!!! waaaarghhh! [text text text]

[chaos settles] [calls alex] [enter the bestfriend]
haaay...
nakampante loob ko. wahehehe.. tumawa na lang nang parang baliw.
[text text] [enter the other]
honga naman..
kaya toh. ganyan talaga buhay .. malalampasan din.

anyway!
ang masaya lang sa araw school kanina.. mga conversations namin ni espee. At ang pag-sign up para sa Green House Events... [ no Bea! mag-Bible challenge kang mag-isa mo!] waheheh.. jowk. pag-isipan ko pa. lam mo naman na atheist ako,eh!!
anyway.. un lang. Action-packed no?

[BOW]

~owari~

Hurting you, Hurting me.

2004-12-13T01:23:00.000-08:00

Lecheng pag-ibig to..
o, Diyos ko..
ano ba naman ito!

-Eraserheads, Pare Ko

They say that you hurt the people you love the most.
If I could turn back time, I would.
I've been foolish.

And I'm sorry...

Past, Present, Future

2004-12-11T12:13:00.000-08:00

Nakita kita sa isang magasin
Dilaw ang 'yong suot
Buhok mo'y green..

-Eraserheads, Magasin

Just as I am addicted to blogging now, I also find myself being drawn to original pilipino music (OPM). I'm learning how to play the guitar, and as of now, almost all the pieces I know are old rock music. =] Think Metallica.. Wahehe. I don't most of the lyrics, but I play it as if it's the only musical genre in this world =]
Music, friend! I can't live without it!
I bought a new, old Eraserheads album... Hahaha! I can't find Wolfgang and Siakol albums.. they're probably phased out by now? T__T So sad..
Also, we went to Manila yesterday! There was a strike going on.. there was a blockade and traffic was simply horrible! (so says my kuya). So we had to take a longer route..
Anyway, mum was already making plans for the apartment since I'm expected to move in there with my bro if ever I pass UST. I had butterflies in my stomache at the thought of college... Just thinking about it already made me homesick.
Mababaw din luha ko! I cry easily. >.<>
But I had lots of fun yesterday! The complex wherein kuya was staying in - the area was a nest for organizations - Fraternities. It was a field trip as Kuya pointed out which frat was which as we drove by.

"Kita mo yang bilyaran? Dyan ang Gau Tama.."
"Weh?"
"Oo.. lagi silang naglalaro ng table tennis sa labas."
"Ay..oo nga. May nakikita kami dyan dati.. naglalaro ng ping-pong"
"Ayan.. abangan mo sa may kanto. Kita mo yang mga nakakumpol dyan? Sila ang Law Fraternity"
"Ngak.. ano ginagawa nila?"
"Tuwing finals week.. maririnig mo sila, 'Eto. Eto ang lalabas sa test bukas'. Yan sa kanan mo.. Yan ang Maximum.. or Maxima Frat, ata. Teritoryo naman nila ang bilyaran na yan."
"Wow.. magkakatabi. Di ba sila nag-aaway?"
"Nagkakasagupa sila minsan."

Quote for the day: "People come and go in your life. You'll have to move on too, eventually." - my Momma

Insomnia..

2004-12-09T01:06:00.000-08:00

I can't sleep..
When he's not around..

-The Corrs

Simple as that.. I can't sleep again. Bad case of insomnia.. I don't know.. maybe it's because I'm being troubled by so many things. I've so many tasks to accomplish.. and I haven't even begun doing a single one! Sometimes.. I just get tired of being a slacker. I want to change.. but I don't know where to start.. I want to make a difference. For the world. For my family. But mostly.. for myself.

Determination

2004-12-08T20:44:00.000-08:00

I am a perfectionist. I want everything to be perfect, down to the last detail.. If I don't like the outcome, I have a tendency to trash what I've done and abandon the task... This goes for blogging. I want to create my ideal blog and honestly.. I'm losing my mind with the html coding.. codes codes codes! [ huhuhu..] Ok, ok.. I know I'm a sore loser sometimes.. I give up so easily. But I haven't =] And I've got Bea and Alex to thank! Long live the UAC! [ Under Achievers Club.. Alex, Bea and I are the founders of this humble little club.. smart-slackers are welcome!] Anyway, they were really kind enough to help me out. And believe me, it took a lot of patience! I'm determined to create my haven.. =]
Then again, I might not be as perservering as I hoped I'd be. There are no classes today, and I didn't bother doing any of my homeworks.. ok. Maybe later... Wahehe.. I have a nasty "manyana" habit. The I'll-do-it-tomorrow-tomorrow-tomorrow-ok-maybe-later habit. =] But I'm sure I'll change..
I'm determined to bring back my one-track mindedness?

Quote of the day: "To remain in paradise and there become a demon! To re-enter into hell and there become an angel!"

- Victor Hugo, Les Miserables

Sinimulang Katarantaduhan

2004-12-07T01:56:00.000-08:00

Nakakainip ang ganitong buhay..
Nakakainis ang ganitong buhay..
- ESEM by Yano

Nothing much happened today..

I'm bored.. that much is pretty obvious. I normally wouldn't waste my time doing something such as blogging... I have my own diary, thank you very much. Manual writing is much more.. I don't know how to say it - sentimental? It simply holds more meaning to me.. than writing memories on a technological-whatsit that could crash any minute... and poof! Simply evaporating all the memories you've written down..

..Then again, you store all your memories in your being. Who else would benefit from it, if not yourself?

..I might just give blogging a try... no harm in doing so, right?

Hahaha.. and so the stupidity and craziness begins..

Ang pagsisimula ng katarantaduhan.